Homeward bound…..
ByI feel that I am homeward bound on an inner and an outer level. This has been such a great few days for me, guiding myself back to my source energy in an intensive time.
I heard late last night – in the middle of the night actually, that we have confirmed flights home tonight!! This is great news – as from the chaos at the airport yesterday, and the feedback we were getting, it looked unlikley. Or as I was saying ” Difficile, mais pas impossible.” (which my or may not be correct French, as I think I often string words and sentences together in a strange way – usually well enough for people to understand, but quirky enough to make them smile!!!).
It’s been really interesting to be involved in the volcano-induced, flight delays (or I suppose they are human induced in response to the volcano doing it’s natural thing, and being a volcano!). The people I travelled with have had very different reactions – some very anxious, angry, blaming, upset etc. Initially I thought I was keeping in my own space about it, by keeping away and doing my own thing. But that didn’t feel good – it was actually closing down my connection to source and cutting me off and isolating me.
Luckily I had bought, Ask and It is Given, Excuse Me Your Life is Waiting and an ipod stuffed full of great calls from Good Vibe U to listen to. It was so great to have so much support to keep my vibrations high. I was in such a beautiful place it was easy in some ways – but there were people, who couldn’t see the beauty of the place and spent the whole extra days there (which I felt as a real gift) – away from when we were in anxiety and anger. When I realised that it wasn’t working for me to isolate myself from it, I knew that the best thing I could do, was to feel as good as I could and to keep my vibration zinging as much as I could.
I used one of Lynn Grabhom’s ideas in Excuse Me Your Life is Waiting – and chose a flip phrase of self appreciation each day. So if I felt or heard myself going into any old patterns of judgement, blame, isolation etc I had a phrase handy to bring an inner smile back to me. Lynn suggests using something you like about yourself – this served a great double purpose for me – as the new body shape I am manifesting hasn’t fully arrived yet, so I had some challenges at first with being on the beach all day!!! This helped so much. I choose things like ” I love my hair” ” I love my eyes”. Everytime I said my phrase I felt that inner smile come, and my vibration rise.
It felt SO much better. I was able to be helpful and supportive to my companions in their reality of fear and anxiety, without being drawn into it. I helped in practical ways and by keeping true to myself. I was called Pollyanna, a few times!!!!!! – which I considered a great compliment. It felt good. I didn’t do any phoning or complaining to the authorities ( well, hardly any…..). I held a picture in my mind and felt the feelings of us all getting on the plane, and things working out easily and smoothly, and of us arriving home in the best possible way.
It was a great practice to me, and all the time, I can feel that sense of being home, that I always feel when I sit to meditate. A homecoming to the real me, to my source.
I love this song – on both the inner and outer level. At times, in my life, I’ve felt that I was constantly on the road even when I in my physical home. I’ve felt I was performing. Thank God, I rarely feel those things now, and can feel the discomfort of them much more quickly, and can find a way back to my real “home” much more easily.
What do you do to get that feeling of “home” in yourself? I’d love it if you’d share your ways – leave a comment so others can learn from you.
